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Hypnagogia

by He Dreamt of Ascension

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1.
Maybe you just need to rearrange Learn to cope and bite the pain Well maybe you just need to understand That things don't turn out like you planned And maybe you just need to lighten up Where am I supposed to go I think I used to know I've reached a conclusion, but nothing feels the same I loved myself Sometimes, anyway Yet I can't take the change No I can't take the change
2.
Skeleton 06:25
I tried to warn you I tried to help you I tried to lift you up, you know I tried to save you The gift I gave you You threw it on the fucking ground You're just a worthless piece of shit You insincere son of a bitch Skeleton umbrella of your mind Guarding you, protecting you In the royal highness of your denial They'll find you, yeah they'll find your Skeleton, of your mind, of denial Still, remember all of the times we had Run away, remember All of the dreams we shared fade away You don't even know how lucky you are I'm a one stop pain And I can't complain But I can't contain what you need And you're still the same And you'll never change What you wanna see, you believe
3.
Scapegoat 03:53
Not this time You're not gonna turn this around again I could break every rule there's room to bend I could break every rule no consequence But you're not gonna fuck me around again I can't believe you How could you hold yourself so high? Ladadadadada and your kingdom folds And I won't save you, no What an ungrateful, spoiled little hateful Backwards, twisted, motherfucking buzzkill And I know, but I don't, 'cause I just don't fucking care One look at a dead man and it seemed life was a friend One taste of human waste and I wanted it to end One breath of fresh air and I thought that I was free But I'm bound for the underground and my head keeps fucking with me I can't believe me Why did I hold myself so high? Ladadadadada and my kingdom folds And I was so naive
4.
Rain 02:45
Some things are catching up with me It pulls me open and shows me I'm unclean It's only to my knees, I pull my wisdom teeth I need this for me I peer outside the window Nothing to gain, nothing to see at all Nothing but rainfall, it's the same calling me And if I may, I'd refrain Just throw myself into the rain And wash it all away
5.
Jackal 06:07
If I don't get fucked up, one way or another I swear, I think I think I may do something bad I'm feeling vindictive, but a little conflicted I can't rest with the enemies in my head I wanna take you apart I wanna do you harm I wanna take you apart Revenge is the sweetest sound Revenge is the sweetest sound Live in the past, live in denial Revenge is the sweetest sound Live in the fall, live in denial If I don't get fucked up, one way or another I swear, I think I can't rest I can't rest with the enemies in my head I'm feeling vindictive, but a little conflicted I swear, I think I can't rest I can't rest with the enemies in my head With the enemies in my head Can you give me something to believe in? I'm falling here with nothing to believe Take me to the valley where my dreams hang And watch them as they fall from the trees Not another look in the mirror, I just wanna disappear I don't wanna face my fears, just get me out of here Just drown it out again, yeah Kill my brain, all the same, all in vain, yeah You took your time to break apart I came down so fast and so hard Do you think you're the only one to fall to pieces? What am I getting into? What am I getting in? What am I getting into? Tell me, am I too far gone? What am I getting in? Why must I ask these fucking questions? (Do you want to be saved?) If I don't get fucked up, one way or another I swear, I think I think I may do something bad (Do you want to be clean?) If I don't get fucked up, one way or another I swear, I think I think I may do something Think I may do something bad If I don't get fucked up, one way or another I swear, I think I can't rest I can't rest with the enemies in my head I'm feeling vindictive, but a little conflicted I swear, I think I can't rest I can't rest with the enemies in my head
6.
Fall Tonight 02:28
So naive in seeming justified Open up, embrace the other side Strip myself of any will to fight I accept the change and fall tonight Close up the blinds, dampen out the light Darken any form of reason Please give me some kind of peace of mind Give me something to believe in Premonition
7.
Certainty 02:09
You're so unreal I will unravel for you Spread myself out thin You're so unreal I will get sober for you Why can't you love me like I loved you? You're so unreal I will surrender to you Just take your time and I will be standing by waiting for you You made it easy for me, yeah I know that you're the one who's scared And I will understand if you never want to see me again I will be waiting and waiting for you I've never been oh so sure in all my life Oh my God, please don't take this away from me
8.
Hateblossom 04:49
9.
Uncertainty 04:49
This is getting to me Uncertainty Don't know what to believe Strayed away from the sheep I'm a stick in the mud I'm a fallen away I need something to breathe I'm a fallen from grace Could you tell me the truth Or at least where to find it I could try to pretend embracing the blindness Hey, what you pretending to be I'm at the front of the line Nearing the furnace to burn Caught in the cradle of time If I was sorry, would you forgive me? Would you protect me? And would you heal me? And would you kill me? Of all the things that you could say Tell me I'm fine I'll go away I'm a stick in the mud Hey, what you pretending to be I'm at the front of the line Nearing the furnace to burn Caught in the cradle of time She wraps me in a fleece of denial But I'm afraid the cradle will fall Speaking of flowers Oh how her mouth draws flies Can't rub the exes from my eyes, and I want to Delay the consequence again Chasing the sun, it sets on my sins All divided, how could she leave me die? 'Cause it's the same fucking thing every time Speaking of 'speaking of' I'm afraid the cradle will fall She is not smiling at all
10.
There I was, never such a fool for believing in you Like I always do Now I see, I cannot believe I was so naive and incomplete You disappoint me What's it you're pretending to be? I see another fucker tricking up her sleeve How disappointing What's it that you're trying to show Oh no, I never thought that you could stoop so low You disappoint me Bow to you, sweet misgivings You tell me what to do every time All of the time But through it all it's me at fault and I take the fall You sure showed me You were right What a valuable fucking lesson Do it again For your beautiful life Know this is so much like you You do this all the time You were a devil's plaything Corrupting my adolescent mind You disappoint me What's it you're pretending to be I see Another fucker tricking up her sleeve How disappointing What's it that you're trying to show Oh no, I never thought that you could stoop so low You disappoint me There I was Never such a fool For believing in you Like I always do I thought you knew It was you I looked up to And I'll never be the same For what it's worth to you You were the wind You were the wings Of this entire decision And as I topple to the ground I could have sworn I heard the sound of your applause And is that a friend? Oh, what a shame it had to end this way With all the years I could have saved In the arms of meant to be You were happy How could I ever break free? Here's your happy fucking ending I was just a little boy Are you happy? Take a look at the life you destroyed
11.
I'm gonna leave tomorrow I'm gonna reach the stars I'm gonna be forgiven No matter how damn far
12.
Acceptance 04:18
That whore, speak of the devil, I must say Run away, run away It's not worth the painstaking trouble you've endured You've come all this way, yeah Another friend to let you down, another girl who's been around The violation of all that's sacred You'd think you'd finally learn by now, the wasted trust, the broken vows And now you realize life isn't what you make it One for the money and two for the show Three to get even, and forty more miles to go I know it's my human condition, but your endurance is as thick as your skin And despite those miles of pain There's an ounce of empty space And there's something left that reels me back to you And times like this I ask myself Why do I keep doing this to me And the answer is clear Because I don't want to be alone, but now I will not take another step until you I'll leave it all behind, shed my disguise I fall, I surrender I was bad, I was wrong I fall, I surrender
13.
Pendulum 05:27
Caught in this contraption with a slew of chain reactions in me Tried to fuck the system but it's making my decisions for me Oh no, I seem to be caught in Rube Goldberg's machine Twenty-one houses of cards rigged to the guillotine Go to sleep Distraught and devoid ambition I stuck around for you I finally found something to live for All is taken, all is broken Wait You can turn this around Don't be afraid This will all go away Rest assured Wait But mostly stop complaining It's okay You are only insane Hold on I waited for you Wait For the pendulum swing Wait What tomorrow brings Wait 'Til I say my goodbyes, yeah I won't see you in awhile anyway No Your optimism is poison to me Here we go Another day Another pause rewind and play Repeat the pain Repeat the shame Repeat the bullshit you did say Here we go Another day And I'm exhausted in my hate Repeat mistakes And never change Repeat the "everything's okay", yeah?
14.
Now I lay me back to sleep Count the damages in me My dreams are confusing And I haven't learned a thing I'll brace myself For what tomorrow brings
15.
Ascension 04:09

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released March 14, 2017

He Dreamt of Ascension is Ryan Steinbruner.

UPDATED: 04/17/2018
(The correct version of Leave It All Behind has been added.)

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He Dreamt of Ascension was started by Ryan Steinbruner in 2007.

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